I read in 2 Corinthians this morning before going for a jog on Ocean Boulevard West. I like running the morning, well before the sun rises. The stars declare the glory of God and the inhabitants of the earth are for the most part unheard and unseen in the stillness of the morning. Occasionally I see a few deer, once I saw a bobcat. What I actually fear stumbling upon, though, is a big alligator. I haven’t seen one since we’ve lived down South but I know they’re around.
During my time in the wilderness today I tried to do my work with the Kingdom of God in mind: I prayed and worshiped and confessed throughout the day. I long to see God. I told Him that again and again: I long to be with You, I long to find a resting place.
I thought and prayed for my second daughter a lot today. She worries me because she is very stubborn and sometimes openly rebellious. She seems totally ungrateful for the blessings in her life, and can be disrespectful to her mother and me at times. Since she was very young — perhaps 18 months or two years — she has tested the limits of rules and how far she could go before discipline descended. It makes me worry because I cannot identify with her attitude. I know it is basic human nature to be rebellious, but there are degrees. When I was 14, if I openly rebelled against my father I really believe he would have punched me in the face. I was afraid of his violent temper. My daughter does not have that concern.
At dinner I spent some time trying to talk to my children about the sin of pride. Pride is the original sin, a root of all kinds of evil. Rebellion flows from pride. I told my children I desire the best possible life for them. I have failed a lot as a father and husband and I know my efforts are paltry but I want to encourage my family to seek the everlasting Father.
Today, as yesterday, I felt very fatigued and sore during the day. I still have the remnants of a cold. Maybe I am just getting older.
But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing, to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. – from 2 Corinthians 2